Have you ever experienced a moment when the Universe smacks you in the face, like “helloooooo?!?!”
One of my favorite things in life is when I get the same tarot or oracle again and again. It always reminds me of the magic that is always here.
Oh my GODDESS have I got a story for you! Buckle in.
At the beginning of September, my friends Amanda, Candice, Anna, and I went camping and booked a spot at a private campground just outside of San Diego. It was a heatwave weekend at 111 degrees (oh hey angel number!) but we decided to go anyways, knowing it would cool down in the evening. On our way there, when we turned onto the eastbound highway, the view of the mountains opened up before us and we were faced with the biggest pillar of smoke I’ve ever seen. It was a wildfire and we were driving straight towards it.
We called the campground and were reassured that it was far away enough from the fire and we’d have plenty of notice of evacuation if it did make its way towards us.
When we arrived, we were greeted by statues of Kuan Yin and Mother Mary and we knew immediately that the Universe had guided to just the right place. Our campsite was on a desert mountain covered in boulders that looked like they had fallen right out of the sky.
We connected with the land immediately. It was called Big Mother, after all. We all gravitated towards the giant tree on the property and laid down blankets, and created our magical altar with oracle cards, chakra sprays, crystals, and sound healing tools. We transformed the tree into a portal and the Goddess energy was palpable.
Hours into exploring the land, laying naked under the tree eating berries, peeing wherever we wanted, and howling at the moon, we decided to pull some oracle cards from the Goddess Power Oracle deck.
It was clear the Goddesses that came through were ones that all four of us embodied.
Hera brought the message of Alliance.
Athena brought the message of Knowledge.
Shakti brought the message of Transformation.
Kali brought the message of Liberation.
Cerridwyn brought the message of Potential.
And thus begins my journey with Cerridwen and the number 9 knocking down my door.
A few weeks later, a couple days before the Autumn Equinox, I was faced with a challenging decision and consulted the cards for additional affirmation. I went for my old favorite, Gaian Tarot, and fanned the cards out as I usually do. My intuition was pulling me towards the card alllll the way to the left and I kept seeing the number 9. “Pull the 9th card from the left," I heard. I pulled both of them, and then felt called to also pull one from The Goddess Power Oracle.
The first card, the one all the way on the left:
9 - The Hermit
The second card, the 9th one from the left:
6 of Earth, which showed a farmers market… funny enough, I was visiting my parents in Hudson, NY and helping them out at several farmers markets that week.
The third card:
9 - Cerridwyn.
Mind blown yet?? Keep in mind, that there’s 78 cards in Tarot and this Goddess deck has 52 cards in it. What are the freaking chances? Ha but there’s more.
On the Autumn Equinox, my lovely friend and soul sister Dinavie lead a ceremony for a few of us and she asked that we bring one object to represent light/life and one to represent dark/death. Since I was still traveling and didn’t have many sacred objects with me, I decided to bring a couple oracle cards.
I went straight to a different Goddess Oracle deck and I asked…
Who is the Goddess here to represent Light and Life?
Wanna take a wild guess at who came through?
Cerridwen. With the message “Death and Rebirth.”
💀💀💀
And if it couldn’t get any better, the first two lines for her message from the book says “I give you life. I give you death.”
I asked for Life and the Goddess sent me Death (and rebirth and life).
And the number 9 according to numerology.com:
“The energy of the number 9 represents completion, but not finality. Think of it more in a cyclical sense; it's about the ending of one cycle and the potential it creates for another cycle to begin. The 9 in Numerology acts as an usher in this process of transition or transformation, guiding and empowering us with its wisdom.”
So literally death, rebirth, and transformation.