Do You Trust Yourself?

I've been paralyzed by fear of making decisions which resulted in inaction and wishing someone else would make the choice for me.

I didn't trust myself.

I was afraid of making mistakes, of being blamed, of disappointing people. I still am afraid of those things. And I still get paralyzed by that fear.

I'm deciding to look that fear in the face and take action.

I have the power to change my life.

I have the power to create the life I want.

It hasn't been easy. In fact, it's been very very painful, heart wrenching, and scary.

It was all uncharted territory.

I had to look into the deep, dark corners of myself that I spent so long trying to hide and bury out of shame. I had to learn how to trust myself and discern what was my own truth and what were hurtful and abusive projections and criticisms from others. They were not mine.

I shared this with a friend this week but it's a message we could all use or be reminded of. 
Other people can't make your decisions for you. I want you to trust yourself and your decisions. I want you to take responsibility for your choices and your actions. You are strong and capable and powerful and resilient and can do this. Don't let anything from your past tell you otherwise.

Show up and do the work. Go through the darkness and on the other side is bliss and freedom. ✨

Don't Dig Up in Doubt What You Planted in Faith

One year ago to the day, I had a crazy thought that thrilled me and scared me. I wrote it down so I would not forget:

"I want to become a yoga instructor. I want to open my own studio. I want to be able to someday do what i love all day to be able to support us."

Months later, actions were taken to put this seemingly far-fetched dream into motion. I did all the research and put in the time, energy and effort and I am now about about 6 weeks away from graduating from my 200 hour yoga teacher training.

It astounds me how much I have grown over the past year and I'm intrigued at what the future might bring. I know there is still much more work to be done to make this dream a reality. As with any journey, there are highs and lows. I'm putting into practice how to experience everything that comes up, both the good and the bad, rather than suppressing the bad. There are still some difficult emotions that I'm not ready to deal with yet but maybe someday. Despite all of that, I love every step of this journey that is setting my heart free. I've never been so sure of anything else in my life and it makes me feel ALIVE.

"Don't dig up in doubt what you planted in faith."